No surgery today - in fact, no surgery until December 13th. Yikes.

Tonight we trigger again. My ovaries were camera shy making the ultrasound a nightmare. I'm still sore.

These drugs are totally screwing with me. I laid down to read a little at four in the afternoon and passed out within 10 minutes. I didn't wake back up until nine at night, other than briefly to notice Shawn coming home.

Three hours later and I'm ready to go back to bed. Yikes.

I've been ignoring this cycle, pretty much. I mean, I'm physically going through the process, same as ever, but emotionally and mentally, I'm just not there.

I was staring at my chart today to see how many days until testing. Eight if I don't test early. On the public page, where I was looking, it shows the previous cycle, too. I was thinking I should print it out and doodle sad faces over CD1. Stupid pink box.

Last cycle hit me really hard, in case you can't tell.

Hmpf.

My body's trying to drive me nuts, I know it now.

I'm going to wait until after the holiday to call about a beta if I haven't started. By then I'll be about a week late, so if I haven't started by then, something's definitely up.

It's weirding me out more than anything.

When Supersize Me came out, it really annoyed me. It still does. I don't get the hype of a documentary telling us what we already know. Fast food is bad for us?? Really??

But beyond that, the misinformation that PCOS is caused by obesity is really frustrating. The billions-of-dollars-a-year diet industry must've really gotten off on that one.

Beyond the fact that there are thin women with PCOS and the fact that weight is often one of the last symptoms to show, the research definitely favors genetics. Susceptibility to it is caused by the CALPAIN-5 (CAPN5) gene. The location of the PCOS gene mutation is on chromosome 19, specifically, chromosome 19p13.3, and is a homolog to a sex determination gene that controls masculinization. Unsurprisingly, it is also right next door to the insulin receptor gene.

Does weight affect symptoms? Sure, of course - fat tissue creates estrogen that unbalances an already unbalanced system. But that's correlation, not causation.

I don't understand why people have such a hard time keeping those two things straight.