My knee's really bad again - unable to walk type bad. It hasn't been like this since I was getting the lupus testing. Maybe it's just part of the process of going back on the pill, to feel like this. Things getting worse before better.

Speaking of, and probably related, I've been spotting and cramping since 3 days before my last active pill, and three days after, I still haven't started. Eh?

For those of you who TiVo'd Paula Zahn's "Hiding Infertility" segment on NOW, it starts at 34 minutes in. The way Kerissa described feeling as if she's a mom without a baby really hit home. I don't know if this is common to all infertile women, or only those who have been through losses, but it's a very good way of putting things.