I'm on a Saturday start with my Aleese, and, well, it's Saturday, and I've just now started - the week after placebos. As in, the day I start taking the active pills again.
Okay, so the Aleese is obviously not working. I'm giving it one more cycle before I call and ask to switch to something else. Like what? Hell if I know. Something stronger, most likely, to suppress more of the excess estrogen that's giving me so many problems.
The fatigue's still really bad. It hit its worst a few days ago when I would have to rest between each dish I was washing. My rash has reappeared as well - along with my shoulder aching. But the knee pain is mostly gone, and the fatigue was a little better the past few days.
I got to go swimming for the first time this year yesterday - it was cold but so much fun!
Mmm, Prozac.
So far I've been taking the Prozac on a typical PMDD schedule. This month I'm not doing so well depression-wise, though. The physical pain is mostly the reason for my withdrawal from everyone lately, but the emotional heaviness doesn't help.
Really, it's not that bad, just some insomnia and my head spinning a bit on the sad end of things when I don't keep myself busy.
Still, I'm pondering taking the Prozac constant until the pill kicks in or I switch to something that works.
Hitting a wall.
It's 6 in the morning and I'm nowhere near sleep. I've pretty much given up for the moment. We need to go sign the lease tomorrow and I'm going to be crashed out for it. I'm not looking forward to it anyway. I'm so.. so.. antisocial these days. It's the only thing keeping me sane(ish).
Today I hit a wall, feeling suicidal. Not to the point of actually doing anything, but to the point of desire for it. I hardly slept last night, then when I did, the dreams kept me from resting. I woke up stressed, and the stress built throughout the day, with grief mixing in.
It's to a point where I can't just wait it out anymore, so I emailed my doctor to see about upping Spiro or switching birth control. We'll see what she says. Hopefully I won't have to go in -- it's a tight paycheck and I'd have to filch from savings. (Not to mention, hello, antisocial.)
But something is definitely wrong, and it's time to shut up with the whining and fix it.
I ♥ email.
She wrote back first thing this morning. Wow. I wasn't expecting anything until Tuesday.
Doc said up the Spiro to 100mg (yowch) and called in a script for Microgestin 1.5/30 (generic similar to Loestrin 1.5/30). I'm kinda nervous of it. It's the first time I've ever said "prescribe me whatever" for birth control and I've heard some nasty things about it. Then again, what doesn't work for others usually does great with me, so who knows? We'll see how it goes. Current plan is to up the Spiro first (starting today) and then change pills after this pack.
