April 27th I went in for blood work. She actually only had to stick me once (I went out of the RE's clinic once with enough holes that they (teasingly) feared I was going to scare the people in the waiting room), and then wiggle the needle around a bit to get the vein. But I bruised, badly, even being careful not to bend my elbow. I still have a bruise. It's nowhere near as bad, it's mostly yellow with a bit of purple in the middle still. But there's something seriously strange about that. More than two weeks for a bruise is just.. so weird.. to me.

My cycles still aren't regulated. On the new pills, I've been cramping and spotting since about a week after I started them. And not anywhere near normal cramping. I can have some bad cramps (to the point of vomiting). These are worse.

On top of that, I've got constant nausea. Constant exhaustion. Constant insomnia. Constant depression (both in the clinical sense and in just a sadness that won't pass). Constant shoulder pain. Even my teeth are hurting.

Thankfully, my ear infection (swimmer's ear) passed in just a few days or I'd be ripping pillows apart (if I had the energy to do such things).

In other words, I'm miserable, and tired, and tired of being miserable. The Spiro isn't doing anything, even diuretic-wise, which is starting to make me feel like I'm taking a placebo. I never know when to take the Prozac (see earlier comment about spotting all cycle), so I end up not taking it when I probably should.

I'm really hoping that when I hit the placebos of this pill pack, I'll have my first regular/real (if a bit heavy) period since the next to last Clomid cycle I was on and then things will even out.

Fingers crossed.

Brain is off, try again later.

I've fought insomnia since my teens, really. I'm having a particularly bad patch of it at the moment. I don't think I've had more than 6 hours sleep total in the past week. Each day I drag a little more, and each time I wake up my eyes are more sore. I'm starting to shake and bump into things.

Tonight I drug Shawn to bed early-ish (around 10:30p) since he opens tomorrow, and we laid there for about 30 minutes with him sleepily trying to put me to sleep, but it's just not something he's good at. Once he's in bed he can conk out instantly, and gets really sleepy, so staying awake to try to help someone else sleep isn't really an option.

I did fall asleep, though not very deep, a little after midnight sometime. I woke up a few times and went back to sleep, but then was totally awake at 1:13a and completely unable to fall back asleep. Yesterday I laid in bed doing nothing for hours trying to fall back asleep after only getting about two hours, and my body just would not cooperate.

Much longer and my brain is just going to collapse into a pile of goo. I may have Shawn drag me to CVS tomorrow to see if we can grab some Calms Forté to see if that can knock me out.